Choices. Coffee or tea. Chicken or fish. Still or sparkling. Empire strikes back or Revenge of the Jedi. Not life changing choices, but choices nonetheless. Today my daughters were choosing courses for next school year. It made me realize that life goes on. It moves forward no matter the circumstances. The chaos of life inevitably tumbles forward. When it does, make a choice. Look up or look down. Long ago in a galaxy far far away I made the choice to look up. To be positive. That was before cancer. Before surgery. Before chemo.Cancer can make you look down. The past 7 months have been challenging. At times unbearable. These are the times to look up. Positive wins. It does not make the hurdles go away. But it does make them smaller. A smile always helps, always. Even on the days where a smile takes every piece of energy you have. Smile. Just smile. I managed to do it. To stay positive. To smile. It took persistence. It took energy. It was not always easy but it helps that I am a Jedi. I got this.
My face has been very quick to heal after chemo. Still a little red. Still a few tender spots. Still peeling and itchy. Still bordering on kinda but not really, really ridiculously good looking. My bottom lip is slow to heal. The area where cancer blossomed. Still numb. Still sore. Still blistered inside from the chemo. It will heal. I got this.
Now my big choice. Beard or no beard? I kid. Sadly the beard goes away. I want to get back to TV. Ties, suits and weather maps…I can’t wait. Heal baby heal…bottom lip don’t fail me now.
Day 37. Thanks for stopping by. Smile.
Time to do a little healing dance…